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Name: Dustin
Birthday: 4/27/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: I am a brother of Phi Mu Alpha Sinfonia and Kappa Kappa Psi, National Honorary Band Fraternity. I have no life but music, and I now know that I've been "a married man since 1919". I love all of my brothers in both organizations and I would never trade my life and my experiences for anything.
Expertise: Music, Phi Mu Alpha, Kappa Kappa Psi, being goofy, having fun
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message meEmail: email me
Member Since:
7/25/2004
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| woohoo
remembered the password...lol
will write more later, sick now, taking theraflu
dustin!
I love you casey erin whaley! | | |
| During this past academic year (including this summer) Kelly, Leah, Whitney, Leslie, Chad, Opie, Crystal Underwood, and Grant will have or already have gotten married. Lindsay Gibson, Kristin Aggers, Katie Henderson, Chris Cloud, and Danielle Weese are engaged. Now, don't get me wrong...there is a balance to this influx. I have seen a good number of relationships, even to the point of engagement, end this summer, including mine. I am not jealous of these marriages and engagements, nor am I focusing on the fact that I am single anymore. It's just interesting to see a great number of my friends progressing so far in their lives so fast already. The people I mentioned were just in this past year, majority even just this summer. The cycle will start back in the fall, and take a year to run it's course again.
The cycle:
Influx of Relationships --> Influx of Engagements at winter --> Starting to see dischord within many relationships during the second semester, while others progress deeper --> Summer sees more engagements and marriages, but many relationships end --> repeat cycle
I am ready, and now I will just sit back and wait for the plan that has been laid for my life. I have a bad habit with my faith, and it's time that I ease back into it. Time to finally let things get out of my hands, and let Him take care of me. Until He sees it right for me, I will be single. I know He wants to give me my hearts desires, so I will not be single forever, I just have to trust that my true love will come along when I am ready for her. I know I will not push away the chance at a relationship, but I am not setting my life aside to make room for one. If someone needs to be a part of my life, they must accept the life that I already have, just as I will do for theirs.
Alright, time to study some more rocks for jocks, and get this sinus problem kicked so I can get better!!
"The past and the present are within the field of my inquiry, but what a man may do in the future is a hard question to answer." --Sherlock Holmes | | |
| ever feel like you've just gotten the wind knocked out of you emotionally, and therefore it affects you physically?
man, some stuff has happened the past week that just has sent my mind rolling and in so many directions i think i'm going to be giving logic a run for it's money.
i don't know what's going on, but i know if you keep people in your thoughts, save some space (however miniscule) for me there.
i'm out
horatio | | |
| god i feel drained
yesterday was very emotional on multiple levels, some of which people only got to see 1 part of
i sort of feel bad for snapping like i did later in the day, but at the same time i felt justified in doing so
here are my reasons justifying myself
1) i have never enjoyed when people play by two sets of rules. some people were fine with what was happening while others complained when i did something that someone else was doing. if you can't take it being done to yourself, then don't do it to others (or don't let someone on your side do it to others)
2) more than just myself were upset at things relating to #1 (above) and were telling it to me verbally. the only difference was that I was saying it out loud
3) i don't hate anyone, and what has happened is now in the past. i've gotten to the point where if a situation gets past a control point, i leave. that's what i did, i left.
more than what happened last night has affected me over the past two weeks, and if you really look into it, you can see why. if you know me well enough, you know the reasons behind me not really being happy any day of the week recently. if you would like to talk to me one on one (anyone) about anything, i'm all for it. part of my explosion yesterday was that i felt attacked by multiple people, and so #2 (above) really didn't get across to the people that i felt attacked by because i am sure it sounded like Dustin was being a poor sport.
i was literally shaking for a good 3-4 hours past when i left because i was so upset. anger, depression, sadness, fear, all of that was affecting me right then. i can just hear it now..."grow up dustin, everyone has hard stuff in their lives"....well...that may be true, but if you want to truly understand what has been affecting my life, come talk one on one. i'll be more open if someone does that, and will also probably shed some light on some things you don't even know about.
i'm out....i'm feeling drained still
horatio | | |
| i feel like some people in this world don't hold to their words
.....or want to take the easier way out
i'm all for easy things to do, as long as i get the same result that would have been accomplished the harder way
.....like using a computer to write term papers, instead of by hand. i still get the educational experience, but at a more efficient way
i hate people that agree to something, and then don't do it later in life
something they verbally oathed themselves to do
and they just say it as if it meant nothing
guess that just makes it all the more special to those of us that believe in those ideals
and do their best(and sometimes fail) to hold those ideals close to their hearts
i'm exhausted, and feel over-run, and all in all, very split and confused
but somehow i'm still happy :)
i'm out!
Horatio | | |
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